I woke up today with a sad feeling about my former place of employment. I was reminded of how much I enjoyed being there and how I had given 100% to the place. I had bought into the vision of the company and owned it. It was a good place to work at and like being in a relationship that you think is perfect, only for it to end abruptly, I think I at times suffer from “withdrawal” symptoms. LOL.
I think the key thing is because there were systems and they worked, and I had been part of the process and it felt like a mother who has to give up her child after birth. It may be an extreme comparison, but it hurt as much; at least that’s how it feels. And I found myself wondering if it is an experience I will get to have again? If I will get to be invested in another company as much again?
I was taken a walk down memory lane to the first time I fell in love. It was the most beautiful thing and a feeling like no other. I loved being in love and everything about it. I thought it was going to be happily ever after, but it was not. And when the brother broke up with me, it felt like my heart had been ripped out! I thought I would not recover, but I did. I fell in love again; I have loved many times after that first experience and every time it ends, it feels like the end of the world but I have always bounced back! And I was reminded that this too shall pass.
It is funny how different experiences in our lives can teach us the same lessons or how we can learn from them. So, I loved working at company X, I learned a lot, I grew as an individual in so many ways. Then I am reminded that life is a book that we write on daily. The end of one chapter is the beginning of a new one. And every chapter has its own challenges and excitements; all are different and unique in their own way.
I will always look back at the past with nostalgia but there is a future waiting to be faced with a smile of hope and yes, I will live again!