Good Monday…It has been decided, my beauty sleep is more important than any TV program or anything else so I shall keep at it.I went for my first cat walk training on Friday and lesson of the evening was how unfit I am that even skipping was an issue!I am working on it.And the walk? Let’s just say that’s why I am going for training.
Closure is an important part of life and every relationship that has come to end.I know this because there is this one person who I keep feeling like we have unfinished business with and it annoys me because somehow I have moved on yet I still find myself being bothered when I hear about him.I don’t know,I will close this one for myself as all attempts to be civil with each other have failed!
Every coin has two sides,I am learning that I think on a daily basis and I am grateful for being beautiful but I realize it is not a smooth ride.Every thing has it’s own challenges.And after battling with stuff,I realize alone time is what I need right.To love myself and just be in touch with me.My friend gave me a diagnosis that I fear rejection and I am lonely-in the midst of people.He was like yes I have a lot of people around me but I do not have someone who is concrete.All the peeps around me seem to be like sand in my hands,they sift through my fingers.The one person who I know is my clay,so to speak is miles away;oceans apart but we have defied distance and I realize I just need to remember that no matter how far,she is still my anchor of sorts,I mean after Christ of course!
I am awesome.I am lovely.I am amazing and there is only one me.The world has enough space for originals,but does not have the patience for copy cats.So I will be me.I will find my tune and dance to it because I realize,I do not have to be someone else to matter,I only need to find me and be me and the rest will follow.Operation,self- realization and appreciation and celebration is on.
I love me.