she sits and looks outside the window

with much expectation in her eyes

like the awaiting of a long lost lover

she stares into space

as if to beckon her lover

to find out how far he is;

how long she has to wait,

for his return.

but the silent breeze is her only answer

the swaying trees the only movement

not even a mirage of a man in the distance

can she see.

she feels her heart breaking

with every tear that drops down her cheeks

she wishes she could keep it together

wished her heart was stronger

this was a love she hadn’t fully explored

if she stops watching and waiting

her heart will heal itself

and she will forget her lover

and the hopes and dreams she had will be lost.

so she continues to sit and stare

holding on to the slightest of hope;

waiting for that light at the end of the tunnel.

as darkness falls,

and the cold bites,

she wraps her arms around her;

remembering the feeling

of his embrace

and she gently rocks herself,

trying to calm her heart.

trying to tell it to hold on

for just one more day.

it has been too many

one more days

and the heart is getting the reality

her lover is never returning

he probably lost his way

back to her

and ended up elsewhere

and now is happy

and all selective amnesia

about his former lover

who awaits his arrival.

the heart can take it no longer

the thought of him with another is shattering

and into pieces the heart breaks

and she screams it out

as if to numb the pain with the shouts

and she sobs

and she sleeps in her tears

not knowing if she will survive the pain.

until the gentle streak of sunshine touches her skin

and she awakes

to a beautiful bright day

and though the burning eyes are a reminder

of what happened the day before

she looks outside the window

one last time

and she stands up

and walks away…

yours,

moulding beauty.

Advertisements

5 thoughts on “a lover’s hopeless wait

  1. Hi this is kinda of off topic but I was wanting to know if
    blogs use WYSIWYG editors or if you have to manually code with HTML.
    I’m starting a blog soon but have no coding expertise so I wanted to get guidance from someone with experience. Any help would be greatly appreciated!

  2. HI Eric, how true that is.and to think,my heart wanted to write these words but at first i wanted to write something different,only to get stuck mid way and then went back to where the heart was and i loved the final result.following ones heart always,leads you to where you are supposed to be.
    thank you for reading.

  3. When we are in the abyss of pain – every step takes us higher and away.

    A bitter sweet poem with hints of a new life expressed in the end. Loved it.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s