i look myself in the mirror
with tears in my bloodshot red eyes
i try to understand why
so much hatred and rejection
comes my way.
what did i do wrong?
i don’t remember
writing an application
to be birthed into this world
i just found myself here
yet they responsible
treat me like an intruder
like i am a bad omen
they wish they could
get rid of
i did not choose
the personality type
isn’t a parent’s love
supposed to be unconditional?
so why do i feel
that you would like me more
if i was a different person?
times i do wish
i was different
then maybe i could
get your approval
and work my way up
to getting your love
but i can’t
and if wishes were horses..
but they are not
and i am who i am
partly because
of who you are
so why am i being punished
for things beyond my control?
i hope and pray
to hear you say
‘i’m proud of you’
i wait for the day
you will look at me
and see your child
and love me with all my flaws
i am broken
i am a mess
i am hurting
i am longing
for the love and acceptance
of a mother and father
i will wait
till i can wait no more
for the tears in my eyes
to be dried
by your touch
xoxo
imperfectous.
Miss Adoyo 