i wish i could be
all you want me to be
i wish i was tall,pretty and skinny
that’s what the magazines call beautiful
with flawless skin
but i can’t
not because i don’t want to
im just perfectly imperfect.
you compare me with her
tell me how amazing she was
how she treated you like a king
made you feel on top of the world
if she was all that,
why are you busy
trying to change me
i am who i am
take it or leave it
perfectly imperfect
i could do better you say
like my older brother you see
he is the perfect child
bright,athletic,a people’s person
i think im smart
maybe not intelligent
and sports are not my thing
im sorry i disappoint you
no matter how hard i try
i can only be me
perfectly imperfect
so many times
people wish you could do more
be more
so many unrealistic expectations
and we seeking acceptance
work very hard
to fit in the definition
the world seems fit
not any more
See,God loved me
while i was at my lowest
i hated me
don’t think i was worth much
my flaws screamed so loudly
times i wished i was not
yet he saw me
from on high
he loved me
called me
the apple of his eye
sent his only Son
to die for my sins
i don’t understand it
i clearly didn’t deserve it
but i accept it
beauty for ashes
stones to rubies
im not the best there is
not the way the world sees it
but i am ok
i am ok with not being perfect
the plastic smiles,
the fake relationships
i don’t know about you
but that the Creator of the universe
saw something of worth in me
Something good enough to save
that gives me confidence
to be ok
with not being perfect
i am happy
being perfectly imperfect.
xoxo
Miss Adoyo 